Ok…….AQU DH GRADSSS…….

Gler hepy kot…..aq speechless sbnrnyer…

Or lbih tepat xde idea nk mrepek….xpe2…..

Aq ltak gmbar je la k…

utk memudhkn owg utk tgk betape hepy nyer aq..

otw nk msuk dewan…kantoi pkai slipar dlu…

wif my besties….izyan….

wif kaq effy n abg eppy….hahah

ME….gradss dhh…

Wif our moms….

Okey…..lambung tinggi2 kwan2….

Love u both very much mydear frens…

Akhir kate…..syer sgt sronok,terharu n bgga krane telah bjaya menamatkn pengajian sayer…

Never say goodbye…. until next time…

makin giler dari hari ke hari.....

Ok….tggl bpe ari jer lgy nk LJM…mkin giler aq pikir sme nie….

Mane nk stay pas LJM…mane nk keje…cmner nk tggung famly…

Aq nk kawen…..aq perlu suami bkn boyfriend……

Aq perlukn sumone utk share per yg aq ase….

Aq perlu sumone yg leh guide aq…

Aq perlu sumone utk aq tnyer per yg ptot aq wt….

Aq perlu famly aq…

Tp ape yg aq perlu tue…

Sme mhal….nk kne bli…..

Sbb aq nie sowg2jer…famly aq dh der famly memsg…

Aq kdg2 ase tpinggir…

Aq senyum…aq heppy…tp dlm aty aq….der owg tnyer x aq ok ke…

Byk yg aq nk tau..nk tnyer…nk handle…tp aq xde sape2…

Aq nk bincng ngn mama…mama cm xnk amik ksah…

Nk bincng ngn bf….memg jd bhan ketawa jer…

Sedih nyer idup nie…….kdg2 ase ilng akal n pedoman kjap…..

SELAMAT ARY RAYEEE......

Ok laa…..dh beberape mggu xupdate blog…mcm2 yg jd….Mcm2 yg dirase…tp….seblom tue…SLAMAT ARY RAYE!!!Dh besar laaa….duit raye mkin kurang…hadoi…thun nie dpt bwah seratus….ok ok…..nie nk crite….

Dh 3tahun aq ngn kaq nisa serumah…dri mula2 msuk kolej smpai laa dh nk abis nie…..tp……sblum abis nie….ktrng der lgy lbh kurng 3mggu laaa utk stay kt hostel…nk dok hostel selame 3mggu tue…kne byar sewa…rm250…mhal tue….baek aq sewa kt luar….bwu seratus sebulan…dn dsbbkan hal tue…aq terpisah dri kakaq yg aq xbpe nk pham tp aq syg…KAQ NISA….myra syg akaq sgt2….ntah bler laa leh lepak lgy….haishhh…..

Nie lagy stu hal…..en.alex..bfren aq…mkin aq xpham per yg dyer nk ngn aq….der jer hal yg xkne…mcm2 salah aq yg dyer cri….smpai hal gg pon nk gdo…aq xpnah kutuk gg dyer yg der taring tue..aq sker per gg taring…aq pon der…tp stu jer…dyer der 2 gg taring….hmmm….aq tgk gmbar kwan2 aq dyer mrah…kwan2 aq kol bgtau khaba dowg pon dyer nk touchng..xpham laa aq….rimas plka aq pangai cmnie..nk mrajuk,nk cemburu xbertmpat…penyudh nyer t aq maki kaw2 t tau laa…..dh lme xmaki owg nie…seingat aq laa…..dlm byk2 ex-boy aq…azrul yg dh jd laki owg tue jer…yg xpnah kne maki ngn aq….yelaa..dh lau aaq wt salah..dyer tgur dpn2..xde dlm fon der…ckp elok2….tp tue laa…kne tggl gak sbb dyer kne kawen ngn gfren dyer…hahahhahha…sial jer….ehh…dh2 pasl ex…nie pasl en.alex nie…per aq nk wt??nk pts syg…xpts semak…(ayt dyer yg aq sgt2 ingt)……serabut la cmnie…ary2 gdo…dh mcm ngn si sabah mse ktrng kapel dlu….tp mse ngn dyer…tiap kali gdo…aq puas aty…sbb dpt memaki hmun…..bwu fair….nie lau dyer jer maki…mne leh than…mcm yg jd ngn en.alex nie…sbb en.alexlbh tua dri aq…jd aq still ase hormat….haduiiii…parah la cmnie…..

Mak oiii…pnjng plak aq beceghabir kali nie…dh laa…kunk kowg muak plk nk bce…(der ker yg bce??)…hahahahha….bye…until next time….

pose n raye...

Ok…setelah sekian lame xupdate blog….Dikesempatan yg ade nie…Aq nk ucapkn selmat bpose n slamt mymbut ari raye aidilfitri….Bkn per….Agak bz la skunk…Xde mse nk update….

Sambutan raye aq tahun nie…Ala kadar jer kot…Lau ikut an aty aq nie…Mlas nk bli bju raye….Aq bkn nyer gy braye sgt pon…Yela…Dh besa2 nie….Siyes mlas….Dari segi kueh raye plk…Aq bwu wt biskut cornflakes….Tp lper nk amik gmbar….Xsempt pon yer…Sbb aq tetido mse tgh tunggu biskut tue mask…Penyudahnyer aq bgon…Tgk2 biskut dh der dlm bekas siap der seal lgy adik aq wt….Lgy rajin dri aq….Tp mlas nk kmas…

Ok la....Sdah2 mrepek….Insya’….Akan menaip dgn ayt2 yg mrepek lgy di laen mse….Assalam…..

Nurses day rocks

Ok….latety der mcm2 yg aq wt….

Event yg aq attend….tp…..

Yg sempat aq amik gmba…nie la….

Mse nurses day kt Hotel Singgahsana….

Awesome gler…..

Aq ingt aq akn nmpk pelik…..

Tp memg plik la pon kn…

Xpnah2 cik myra ejat nie pkai kebaye ngn heel nth bper inci…kt kolej….

Agak plik bler mreke memndang…hahahahahhaha..

Yg pnting mse tue…mcm2 yg terjdi… 

Cyunk kamoo la buchuk

4 dara bebaju kebaya….sweet.. 

Sayer bersame mreke yg tggi..

We rocks la dude n dudette!!! <3

Sweet x sayer???

Mreke gler2..n sayer suke…

Sayer syg mreke berdua…arap kter kekal kwan…

sayer dh smpai kt Hotel Singgahsana…<3<3<3

Ok…that’s all 4 now…..

Der pape or mse…akn merepek dcnie lgy…

xde yg important pon.

Huiyooo…….lmer gak xupdate blog…..agak bz….

Praktikal dh abis…presentation dh settle…

Exam jer yg blom slesai…hadoi……

Xsbar nk done smer nie…

Mkin lmer aq kt cnie…mkin byk owg benci kt aq…

Hhmmmmm….cpt la mse blalu….

Aq dh xthan la cmnie..

Ok la…..dh2 mrepek…bye….

Syg famly syer…..

Ok….SWEET 21 dh oiiii….tharu sgt…..

Wlupon xde enalex dcc…xde famly dcc…

Tp syer der 2^nd famly dcc….

Korunk smpai tpat pde wktu….

Wlupon nie jer dsediakn….tp syer sgt bsyukur pon…

 Syg kaq myra……

Sowi syg2….xdpt bendung prasaan nk share pic kiter….

Sumpah syg korunk deep2…

No idea lgy

Hmmm….lmer dh update blog…..agak bz skunk…

Yelaaa……dh jd kakaq besa……hahahahahah

Sem 6 nie serabut la……byk nk kner wt…..

Msalah kt tempat keje.….

Masalh kt umh……

Masalh sentiase ikut aq….

Dh xtau nk update per sbnarnyer…

Dh bosan…TP…..

Mgkin akn update blog nie dlm mse terdekt…

Dgn aktiviti bersame teman n cinta haty……

Recent activity…..

Ok…..baru2 nie….aq kluar jln2 ngn en.alex….

Bersame2 pyqa n pakwan…Best la plak wt aktiviti nie…

Mlepak kt P.D…..aq truja sgt dpt tgk laut….

Almaklum la……dh lmer x jejak kn kaki kt pasir laut kn…

Hahahaha….nie antara pix2 yg aq amik bersame2 mreka…

Pakwan, pyqa n aq…

Aq ske tulis2 kt pasir pantai….

Sweet kn kami??(tgn kt bahu mate ke ats)

Sme x muncung kami????

En.alex blanje aiskrim….

Ok….that’s it 4 now…..until then…love a lot…

blogszzz

lmer ase nyer xupdate blog nie....

xde mse....n xon9 pkai lappy....

salu on9 pkai fon jer....

tue pon nk update status...

haisshhhh......

final year....final sem...

mcm2 jd....msing2 pangai mkin plik...

aq ptus cinta then trus dpt cinta bwu...

truk ker aq???memg la aq cintakn dyer yg dlu...

tp dh dyer yg mintk ptus...

xkn la aq nk trus hrap kn...

live must go on...

n my roommate.....awkward bler dyer plk wt pangai aq yg dlu...

haisshhh...xpe la...asalkn ko bahgia...

for now...aq stil juz go wit the flow...

ok...bye

Antara aq n dyer dh ptus….

rse sesak nafas aq semlm bler mama tnyer pasl dyer….aq speechless….

smpai mama ckp aq cntct dyer mse aq perlukn bntuan dyer jer…

pdahal dyer yg tgglkn aq…dyer yg cri aq mse sdih….

mama tnyer pasl mama n wan dyer….pe aq nk bgtau???

aq yg trase digunakn…bkn dyer…..

xkn aq nk bgtau mama plak pe yg dyer wt…part of me still lovng him….

i’m guilty….so guilty towards alex….i’m sorry….

14/2/12 = valentines day

Hmm……sejarah ari valentines aq????xpnah plak smbut….

Lau smbut pon mgkin mse form4/5 dlu kot…tue la 1^st n last…

Tue pon bkn mse 14/2…tp pade ari selepas 14/2…

Sbb nyer bler 14/2 tue msty time aq gdo ngn bfren…

Xpon aq tgh single….hahahaha….

N ari nie 14/2…dlm sejrah aq….aq de couple n kami xgdo…

Tp….xjugk smbut….sbb masng2 keje…..

Tringin nk owg hadiahkn bunga n chocolate…

Xpnah dpt pon…..chocolate salu la dlu….

Agak2 la an….der x bunga ros biru cm dlm gmba nie???

Hmm..ok la…sudh mrepek…

p/s: still hoping 4 sum1 gve me

a bouquet of blue roses n chocolate

i’m in love

Mama..i’m in love with a criminal…N this kind of love isnt rasional its physical…

Mama please don’t cry I’ll b alrite….All reason inside I juz cnt deny…

I love this guy…..All I know..should let go..But NO…..

Cause he’s a rebel wit a tainted heart… evn I knw this aint smart….

So I guess its ok…He’s wit me…. I hear people talk….trying to make remarks..

Keep us apart…but I don’t evn hear…I dnt care…..

Cause mama…I’m in love wit a criminal….

1/2/12 & 2/2/12

1/2/12:

Destination: KLCC

Purpose: Outing wit toys r us staff….hahha……

Enjoy gak kuar ngn downg nie….trase mcm der bodyguard….mner x nyer…jay n wan bwak walkie talkie kot…smentara tunggu kq nana kt KLSENTRAl…aq gy la mrayau2 jp usha2 bju n skirts…skali toleh blakng…jay ikut skali…wan plak tunggu kaq nana kt tmpt owg kluar dri KTM…klaka btul…ktrng jaln2 n tgk wyng kt KLCC…criter CHRONICLE….not bad la….best gak….dowg nk tgk underworld…tp memandngkn aq dh tgk..dowg mengalah je la….lpas tgk wayng…ktrang jaln2 usha kdai toys r us yg der kt ctue..nk tgk…saper lgy best kt service area…aq ke dowg…kikikiki…selsai mronda…kami ke luar KLCC utk tgkp gmba….best gak la…pnat aq jd model jay..pnas tue…antra gmba2 yg kami amik…

Captured n Edited by jay

Me n my supervisor…kaq nana

Kaq nana n my best buddy..jay

Kaq nana n wan

Ok….ckup kot criter nie…xde idea dh..

2/2/12:

Destination: morning- COLLEGE,evening-WORK

Purpose: COLLEGE-remain secret…,WORK-keje la pe lagy

Dh lame xbgun pgy utk gy kolej….perghh…liat gler nk bgun….mner xnyer…pas jer kuar ngn staff toys…kuar plak ngn en.ALEX…shoppng bju kuar mkn then karok…rabak biji mate aq pg tue…dh slesai hal kt kolej….blik umh tetido..hadoyai…bersalahnyer sbb tipu kter kt kolej lgy…dh msuk jer keje…aq pon mcm bese la….wt la keje kt service area tue…tetibe jay dtg kt aq bg aq face mask…dyer kater dyer xpkai..aq ok je la…ye la…owg dh bg kn…dyer suh ltak dlm loker…aq ikut kn je la…bler bukak je loker aq yg sememgnyer dh xbole kunci tue…aq nmpk stu plastik ptih…bler aq bukak…ruper2 nyer skirts yg aq usha kt KLSENTRAL semlm…mlompat la aq…keHEPIan…jay kter lpas jer dowg anta aq kt LRT smlm ptg…dyer trus gy bli….segan plak aq ngn jay nie kdg2…xkn la dyer sker aq kot…kn dyer dh der awek..haisshhh…trime jela…owg bgkn…blik jer umh…dok try2 skirts tue..tetibe der owg ktuk pintu umh…tkut gak nk bukak…bler dh bukak…ruper2nyer si HARA….jiran sblah…dtg bg mkanan…kternyer abg yg keje nandos tue bg….btmbah malu aq…HARA senyum2 jer pndg aq….heheheh…..

Nie la skirts yg jay bg wlupon sbnarnyer aq bekenan yg wrne cokelat..tp oren pon aq sker…fav colour la…n nie la beg mkanan yg cik abg tue bg….aq xtau pon nmer dyer…aq sbnrnyer xknal pon dyer…xper la…rezki aq…rezki owg skit kot…THANXX a lot guys..(trase dri disenangi n disukai)

Ok…..i don’t knw wht 2 say….i felt guilty 2wards him…

Seriously…I’m guilty causing him 2 like me tht way….

Not juz him….thres a lot of guy out thre I gues…(bajet cntik jer ko nie)

Tp pd pemikiran aq….guy aftr me coz of body….not my heart…

Hw cn I tell if thres sum1 like me bcoz of me…my heart..

Not my body….when I really like sum1…I do mean it…

N if I say thres nothng between us…I also do mean it…

Its hard 2 hide wht I’m feelng rite nw…

Wht I’m facng nw…cnt wear the smily mask anymore…

Its broken….

Ok…….skunk nie aq dh trase sgt bodo nyer…Dlm aty sudh ade dendam….(haishhh)Xelok nie…..per nk wt ek????Spanjng aq bepikir pasl per yg jd nie…(konon2 jer)….Aq telah melaksanakn satu tugas yg aq pon xtau la…Acara wajib kot lau aq bengang…Msak lasagna…..tetibe kn…Tp…nie la yg aq wt….

Penuh gaye kn????

Semntara menunggu lasagna msak…

Nie la yg aq wt…hahah

N hasilnyer….agak memberangsangkn….Walaupon dminit akhir mama terpksa cmpur tgn….

Kureng jd kate mama…sebb xmelting…hah…ade I kesah??

I yg nk mkan…

Hah……bebalik pade masalah aq….skunk nie tersangat la ingin nyer mencari gado….tp xde kwan nk gdo plak…..tringin nk tuka imej….xnk nmpk cm budak baek….nk nmpk cm budak jhat…senang xde yg nk dkat….pnat tau jd budk yg konon2 baek nie…asyik kne maen jer…..jd cm dlu pon ok gak….budak baek yg jhat…tp nti rmai plak yg kner tpu….haishhh….bler aq dok sowg2…xnk jd budk baek or budak jhat…owg kter aq nie sombng….aq nie xde life…padahal…aq cume xnk wt saper2 sakit aty…tp ade gak yg sakit sbb aq jd cmtue…penat la nk jge aty owg….aty aq der sesaper nk jger???xde kn???sumpah bengang sial skunk nie….lau aq dpt ko skunk nie….memg aq pijak muke ko tue….(mcm la kuat sgt an...xpdan ngn kechik)…sial la….

Brambus la ko dri otak aq….!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its painful when I cant stop thinking of u..

its more painful when I think tht u didn’t miss or think of me at all….

I try 2 4get u….

But the harder I try…

The more clearly our memory playing in my head…..

What r u doing now??

Did u sleep well??

Did u eat well??

I cant do anything right bcoz of u….

I juz wish tht u cn cme bck 2 me…

I really need u…

I really miss u…

P/s: still loving n missing u….

i'm such a jerk.....i'm a bad person.....
its not a rite thing 2 do....i shud not make him a gateaway 2 my problem..
he deserve sum1 better thn me....
i dont think i cn love anyone rite now..
i try 2 mke fren...i try 2 be fair 2 evryone..
i'm in a guilty mood......

its not supposed 2 turned out like this....
but hw do i let myself out of this mattr...
dear good..please tke away my memory bout him....
please help me 4get bout him so i cn live my life freely..

p/s: stil cnt 4get bout him...
stil remember the thing tht shud b 4get..
stil trying 2 b cool....
(sigh)

aq memg hypokrit……aq stil xleh lper sbnrnyer….

Aq try senyum n gelak mcm biase…..trase pelik sgt….sbb aq tgh sedih….jd nper aq leh ketawa???

Aq tringin nk delete smer skali…..tp aq xsanggup…sbb tue jer memori yg der slaen dlm pale aq nie……tiap kali aq tgk….tiap kali tue la aq nangis…..aq try nk delete…sumpah.,….tp aty aq xsampai…..aq harap leh jd cmbese jer…..aq harap aq leh lperkn dyer cm aq lperkn teddy besar dlu…..sekjap jer….xsampai 2mggu….aq xnk jd cm mse aq lperkn botak…sthun lbih gak la nk bgun blik….aq tringin nk doakn yg buruk2 utk ko…..tp aq bkn kejm cmtue…aq x sekejm korng…aq xnk jd kejam….slagy aq leh btahan….aq akn than…..

p/s: jgn jtuh cinta or syg aq lbh2….sbb aq xde perasaan yg smer cm korunk…tp bler aq dh btul2 syg n cinta…jgn maen2kn prasaan aq….

alone again....

finally....i'm back 2 whre i belong.....

my lonely world.....its really cold here.....

he left me......he juz leave like tht....

his word like a sword tht stab my heart......

god..its relly pain........i wish i've juz die......

y did this always happen 2 me...whn i really fall 4 sumone...

in th ends...th only thng left is pain?????

i juz tot it juz my nightmare.....

but its really happen.....

i tot he will b th last...but its look like.....

DAMN........its PAIN......

hmmmm.......new years eve....i'm home alone.....no where 2 go...no one 2 hang out with...

so.....sit bck n relax n sad at home....last day of 2011.....

what did i do in last day of 2011????

hhmm....i go to work....i intertain my frens with my childish behaviour....

keep running n shoutng....n playing around....while hearing they talk bout their plan 4 new years eve…

me juz wanna go home….actually….really wanna go out..

but I didn’t want 2 start a fight….hate it….

So its better if I’m juz home alone…

Owhh yaa….here’s some pic of me…since I’ve been working there…I’ll look more cute..isnt it??hahahaha…..

Hmmmmm…..enoughwit the pic…coz its so many…cn upload it all…coz it will full wit my pic thn my write…hahah…